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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

15.06.2025 04:05

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

How do I come out as queer to my best friend in a funny and stupid way?

As i do to all so called friends.?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Why is watching a man and a woman have sex considered perverted? It's how we all got here, it's what we do, I say if you want to watch porn then carry on!

He resisted the act ,that day.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

It was going to be , some day.

I will be 64.

What should I do? I'm 17 and I'm dating a 23-year-old guy.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

So, i spoilt her more .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And who doesn’t know suffering?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

How do I cope with the fact that I will never have a girlfriend?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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Who then, do I blame.?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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I was seconnd youngest,

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

All the time i was locked up.

We were not on the streets..

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Would this be the day?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

This is soul school!.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She was in good health!

I was very sick at this time too.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And i lived it daily.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Especially a lifetime of it.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We all went to grammer schools

Ive learnt so much.

I waited trembling.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She found it foreign!.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I was scared of men, in general

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I never cut or harmed myself..

My family never makes their pension either.

One cannot live in the past .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She wouldn,t have been !

But, we were locked up after school.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I don,t even have a pension.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But ive been too sick for many years..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Put me off passion for life!!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

She loved him until the end.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She married twice! .

Why did i forgive my father ?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But it wasn’t much.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He knew the spot.

I have no regrets .

I write beautiful poetry .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

What did i know ?

Im still living with it.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

(And it was in our own minds.)

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I think the readers, may guess!

I could never make a relationship work though!

So whats the point in blame.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Comes on , in middle age.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My life is so biszare .

Was to survive, this bastard.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I said to her

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was 9 years of age.

I couldn’t, believe it.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

When she asked me how she looked .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.